well since molly did it...its totally the cool thing to do

so i've had this journal for ages now...never wrote in it, but molly started one so i figured i might as well use mine! so...i went to see kelly clarkson last night and she was absolutely amazing. she knows how to say everything that people are thinking but just cant put into words. i have gotten so much out of her music and shes honestly pulled me through some tough times this summer! wow...i know that sounds stupid but it's true! she sings the story of my life!

nehow...i'm getting my hair cut in the morning and i'm kinda excited for that, i love a small change now and then. then i'm gonna lay out with mere, hopefully it wont rain, its supposed to but we need the sun. i need my endorphins!!!!

moving to state in 5 days! i'm leaving all my best friends and after this summer they've been there for me and i dont know what im going to do without them. i love them so much! i know im going to meet so many great people up at school, but i just cant believe im leaving the people that i've experienced so much with and matured and almost grown up with! i am confident though that we'll always be friends, and that we'll always be there for each other no matter how far away. I can't wait for state though its gonna be such a change but so fun and different. i wanna start class, start meeting people and start experiencing all the activities and experiences of college life. then again i'm kind of scared...scared i might fail or scared that i might not find a home there. i'm honestly going to miss my parents. they anchor me down and help me stay balanced, i'm ready to start life on my own, but i'm afraid not to have them there. i know its going to be a promising experience and i'm ready to take on the challenge!

so yeah my mom and i talked today and i just have to say that i'm over everything and that i can't believe that i actually fell for the lies that were told. i mean i was betrayed and made a fool, but i shouldnt have fallen for the crap that he was pulling. i know better than that and should have known. now i just need to meet a nice freshman boy majoring in law or medecine and then i'll be all set! no more of this high school immature kid crap. i'm putting my foot down...but i guess a little late for that. o well...i learned, i was hurt and now its time to move on and take a step forward and upgrade my next relationship.

alright well im excited for tomorrow...lots to do and some fun stuff too. call me or leave one. holla back!